A
few years back I was talking to a man who was telling me about
himself. He said that most things in his life were fine, except for
one thing. He had a terrible temper, which was so frustrating and he
said, ‘If only I didn’t have this temper, everything would be
perfect.’ I couldn’t help thinking that this weakness which was
so frustrating to him, was probably also one of the things that
helped him to stay close to God. If we thought we were perfect we
would probably also think that we had no need for God. It is also
true that when we are not aware of our weaknesses that we can become
terribly arrogant.
There
is a priest known simply as Brother Andrew, who co-founded the
Brothers part of the Missionaries of Charity with Mother Teresa. In
one of his books about his experiences, he begins by saying: ‘Few
people would believe the weakness on which the Missionaries of
Charity are built.’ He speaks a lot about his own weakness,
although he doesn’t say exactly what it was, but that he suffered
from some kind of addiction. But this weakness, which frustrated him
so much, was also one of the things that made him holy. He doesn’t
say that, but you can see it from his writings. The reason why God
did such great work through him, through Mother Teresa and through so
many others, was not because they were extraordinarily talented, but
because they were aware of how weak they were and so they totally
relied on God for everything.
The
reason why God was able to do such wonderful things through the
saints, is not because they were perfect, but because they were weak
people who continually turned to God and so God was able to use them
in an extraordinary way. It is very easy to get a false impression of
what a holy person is. Books can often give us the impression that
they were people who did no wrong. The truth is that saints were and
are weak people, with just as many weaknesses as any of us, but they
continually turned to God for help and as a result God was able to
work through them in such an amazing way. To understand that, is
absolutely key to growing in the spiritual life. If the saints were
perfect people who never did any wrong, then very few of us could
relate to them. But if they were weak people just like any of
us—which they were—then not only can we relate to them, but it
should help us to see that the exact same path is open to us, because
it doesn’t depend on us being good enough, rather it depends on us
continually turning to God. That is the key.
There
is no one here who doesn’t have weaknesses of one kind or another.
It could be some kind of addiction, it could be a need to control, an
emotional dependency, whatever. We all have something and as you well
know it can be extremely frustrating.
I
find it comforting to think that two thousand years ago, St. Paul was writing about
the exact same thing (See today's second reading 2 Cor
12:7-10). Paul was a very intelligent man, well educated and
obviously very talented and even though he had visions of Jesus which
converted him and then he went and preached everywhere and worked many miracles, he too
suffered from some kind of weakness, although he doesn’t say what
it was. But in this second reading you can hear his frustration as he
says that three times he asked God to take this thing away from him,
and three times God said ‘No, my strength is at its best in
weakness.’ This weakness, whatever it was, obviously helped him
more than he realised. It kept him humble, which meant that he
continually needed to turn to the Lord and ask for his help and that
is why he and so many other men and women throughout the ages were such powerful
instruments in God’s hands, because they relied totally on God and
not on themselves. The Lord left them under no illusions as to their own weakness.
I
have no doubt that all of us probably feel we would be much better
off if only we could overcome our weaknesses. But perhaps these
readings will help us to see that the Lord knows what He is doing
when He allows us to struggle with them. They are frustrating, yes,
but they can also be a gift in the sense that they make us rely on
the power of God more than on ourselves. It also reminds us that it
is not a question of being ‘good enough’ for God. We will never
be good enough, but that doesn’t matter. As long as we know that we
are weak, then we will see that we have someone to turn to who really
can and will help us. God is not put off by our weakness.
So
I shall be very happy to make my weaknesses my special boast so that
the power of Christ may stay over me.
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