A couple of years back I was talking to a man who was telling me
about himself. He said that most things in his life were grand,
except for one thing. He had a terrible temper, which was so
frustrating. And he said, ‘If only I didn’t have this
temper, everything would be perfect.’ I couldn’t help
thinking that this weakness that was so frustrating to him, was
probably also one of the things that helped him to stay close to God.
If we thought we were perfect we would probably also think that
we had no need for God. It is also true that when we are not
aware of our weaknesses we can become terribly arrogant.
There is a priest known simply as Brother Andrew, who co-founded the
Brothers part of the Missionaries of Charity with Mother Teresa.
In one of his books about his experiences, he begins by saying: ‘Few
people would believe the weakness on which the Missionaries of
Charity are built.’ It is a strange statement for most people to hear when we think of people like Mother Teresa and the extraordinary work that she and the many other sisters and brothers do. Brother Andrewe speaks a lot about his own weakness,
although he doesn’t say exactly what it was, except that he suffered
from some kind of addiction. This weakness, which
frustrated him so much, was also one of the things that made him
holy. He doesn’t say that, but you can see it from his
writings. The reason why God did such great work through him,
through Mother Teresa and through so many others, was not because
they were talented enough, but because they were aware of how weak
they were and so they relied totally on God for everything.
The reason why God was able to do such extraordinary things through
the saints is not because they were perfect, but because they were
weak people who continually turned to him and so God was able to use
them in an extraordinary way. It is very easy to get a false
impression of what holiness is: Books can often give us
the impression that saints were people who did no wrong. The
truth is that saints were and are weak people, with just as many
weaknesses as any of us, but they continually turned to God for help
and as a result God was able to work through them in an amazing
way. To understand this is key to growing in the
spiritual life. If the saints were perfect people who never did
any wrong, then very few of us could relate to them. But if
they were weak people just like any of us—which they were and are—then
not only can we relate to them, but it should help us to see that the
same path is open to us, because it doesn’t depend on us
being good enough, rather it depends on us continually turning to
God. That is the key.
There is no one here who doesn’t struggle with weaknesses of one kind or
another. It could be some kind of addiction, it could be a need
to control, an emotional dependency, whatever. We all have
something and as you well know it can be extremely frustrating.
I find it consoling that two thousand years ago St. Paul writes about
the exact same thing (See this Sunday’s second reading 2 Cor
12:7-10). Paul was a very intelligent man, well educated and
obviously very talented. And even though he had visions of
Jesus which converted him and then he went and preached everywhere,
he too suffered from some kind of weakness, although he doesn’t say
what it was. In this second reading you can really sense his frustration
as he says that three times he asked God to take this thing away from
him, and three times God said ‘No, my strength is at its best in
weakness.’ This weakness, whatever it was, obviously helped
him more than he realised. It kept him humble and it meant that
he continually needed to turn to the Lord and ask for his help and
that is why he and so many other men and women were such powerful
instruments in God’s hands, because they relied totally on God and
not on themselves as they were well aware of how weak they were.
I have no doubt that all of us probably feel we would be much better
off if we could overcome our weaknesses. But perhaps these
readings will help us to see that the Lord knows what He is doing
when He allows us to struggle with them. Yes, they are frustrating, but they can also be a gift in the sense that they make us rely
on the power of God more than on ourselves. It also reminds us
that it is not a question of being ‘good enough’ for God.
We will never be good enough, but that doesn’t matter. As
long as we know that we are weak then we will see that we have
someone to turn to who really can and will help us.
So I shall be very happy to make my weaknesses my special boast so
that the power of Christ may stay over me.
Fr,
ReplyDeleteThanks for that reflection! I feel that it hits the point! we will never be good enough for God but it doesn't matter, and yet God tells us daily "My grace is enough for you!" I feel energized again!